kalisidian

So does anyone actually believe or have their own theory about how the world is going to end? i'd love to hear it. lol. i love hearing people talk. some people are like Bring it! and others are like OMG dont evn say it! im more like bring it but iv heard a meteor and zombies and just a solar flare and disease. sooooo tell me pplz. how are we all gna die? and what hhave you done to prepare? Its my exs bday, the 21st. lol. i wonder how he feels. lmfao. happy bday. hahahahaha.

So I've been sick and depressed lately. My boi said his ex that died never did and went back to his home state to see his family. But then he went to a party and guess who he happened to see there. Bet you can't guess. If you're smart you prolly got it right. So yeah...im also struggling cuz this is the second christmas tree i've had to put up without my brother. Its prety rough. So yeah. I'm also really depressed in december anyway cuz its my dads birthday and ive never once in my life had the chance to tell him happy birthday or spend any holiday with him...and as i get older i know he gets older and i guess im waiting for a call one day from some random family member telling me he died...hate to be the rain cloud on everyones festivities. Im happy to spend a christmas with my mom though. I turn 18 next month and my son turns one. yay! he can almost walk...ill try to stay positive...

So I havent been on in a while because my laptop was broken. Alot has happened...my boyfriend was kissed by another girl, but i forgave him...he broke up with me and was flirting with other girls annnnd now we are together again. It has been hard...i care about him and he can be so sweet but the amount of bullshit I take is so stressful...i like having him in my life but if he continues with this bullshit I'm just gna say fuck it and end it. I cant say much because i have a minion pulling on my powercord. I dont know how much my boyfriend cares but I guess we are just gna have to wait and see what happens...i mean the worsst that could happen is the hole where my heart use to be widens even more until someday it will be so vast that it consumes me...kind of reminds me of Mirokus wind tunnel in Inuyasha. just saying...lol. But i hope everything else works out...worried about graduating. Really like my stepsister though. she brings out my silly side. just like my brother use to...anyway. ta ta for now as tigger says. i hope my relationship gets better...im so trashed about it...an advice? i know i prolly sound dumb that i took him back right?

Ok so I'm thinking about joining the military when I get out of High School. I'm a senior so it would be like next year in June. I think the marines are too hardcore for me plus I don't want to die...and YES i know that sounds stupid. But I was thinking about the army or airforce? Anyone knoe about like an intel job or communications? Or really any job I could do right out of high school? Feedback would be absolutely amazing. My uncles are in the navy but they seemed to be gone alot. I can't ask them anyway. But I'm not a skinny twig too. I'm like 5'6 and I have a sturdy bone structure, which is probably why most guys don't like me and I'm more a tom boy. So I can survive boot camp, I'm more focused on a job I could do. And NOT like cooking and cleaning. Any info? I have no clue about the military...

Excited, going as a goth couple with my boyfriend. Dressing my son as a punk baby. He'll be adorable. I'll take some pics maybe. I'm going to decorate his stroller and maybe go walking with my boyfriend because my two younger brothers can't be out all night. I'm happy I might get to spend some time with my bf and I really like talking to him when we aren't in school. What are you guys dressing up or doing for Halloween? Some of my friends are mormon so they aren't doing anything but thats ok. I'll be sure to share my candy lol